Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Miss Martinez Where Were You?


Hello Twitter Bugs, Facebookers, YouTubers and Myspace nerds !

It’s your longtime friend Miss Martinez, coming back to you once again. Yes, I have been away for awhile, two months and a day to be exact. Don't be mad, and if you are don’t be! Get over it, I’m here now. A lot of things have taken place in my life since I wrote my last Blog.

At the start of the summer, I was at my life’s lowest point. I was in an inescapable place , a place that I thought I could not get out of. My relationships were falling apart, I did not know myself. The great thing about darkness is that everything in the dark must come to the light. I was depressed and alone (or so I thought). My soul was broken.

How did I get out of that darkness? God had spoken his words to me and through my God fearing friends. They told to me pray, even tho I didn’t want too. In my mind, I was in a place where in building my relationship with God, I would have to ask God, "Its me, Kathy... do you still remember me?". Little did I know, God had a bigger plan for me than I had from myself. So, .everyday I would unwillingly pray to God and give Him thanks. In the beginning, my prayers were casual. Before I knew it, my prayers became conversations. God showed me the way; he restored my soul and continues my spiritual awakening every blessed day.

Now Im Back, better than ever! In a more comfortable place. A place I had never been! A new space where Im slowly falling in love with myself, a place where Im not concerned with the lives of others, a place where I do not care about what others think about me. Insecurities, hesitation, failure have no place in my heart. Only victory! Most importantly, I am taking my walk with Jesus Christ more serious. Like my God fearing people would say "You can't have one foot in church and the other outside the door"

Through my intimate conversations with God, I have learned a lot about God and myself. One, God is not a God of confusion. Once he gives you the word, do not doubt God even when you can't see the bigger picture. Second, God created everyone equally. There is noone bigger than you and there is noone smaller than you. Everyone is equally important. Therefore, do not let anyone belittle you and always act out of love. Other deatils of my intimate conversation will be revealed to you guys further along in my blog.

I’m Back! and I’m rejoicing. No longer crying and screaming only dancing and shouting! ;-* My Happiness is contagious.




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